The burning.

The burning of the lungs. The burning of the knee. The burning of the body. The burning of my soul.
I ran for the first time today in two weeks. Two long, excruciating weeks. Actually it wasn't that bad...since I had company for two weeks =]. hehe, everyday of that week too O_O. that's just...kinda cool. haha. Thanks TD. Without you, I would be thrown back into the sea of depression again.

Anyways, while I was running, my body was screaming at me. It was asking, "What the freak are you doing? Stop..just stop..." My spirit ignored it and made it keep running. In the end, I ran the mile in 12 minutes. 12 minutes..I used to do under 8.

But the pain..I don't know. It just hurts a lot. I just want to run. I just want to go back to lacrosse. I don't want to lay down and be useless. I can't even walk right.Why is my knee bent and crooked?! It's just so..blah. What do I do?!

I've never been so impatient in my life.

The feeling of content.

You know life is amazing when each and every day is worth it. Even if I messed up my knee, failed my test, and get in trouble by my parents...life is amazing <3. =]
..I should bring that grade up tho :|

Living nightmare.

I messed up my knee again. It's so frustrating and it's like I'm reliving this nightmare again..and again. I am limping and I am constantly in pain :\. If I go to the doctors, they'll just say, "your knee is messed up and you have to go to a physical therapist" and ahhhhhhh! I don't want to go through that again..It's like, I have to sleep so I can't feel it anymore..and it's just..depressing. blah. So all I can do is deal with it..:\

So I made a poem because I'm constantly thinking about my knee now, but I turned it into a lovey dovey poem, haha :D!

Each step I take, pain shoots up to my knee
Each step of pain is worth it to me
Because with each step, I get closer to you.

It's one of those days ;D

Man, I love hanging out..Today was so fun ;D
It all started yesterday. she was about to tell me something, but said, "nevermind" and she drove off. Then I chased after her and threw my favorite green jacket at her. She ran over it. -.-. But I managed to made her stop and I got in.
She asked me at the last minute to come to her house tomorrow (oct 2), but wouldn't tell me why.
I found out today she wanted help cleaning her car. -_-. So I kind of got tricked..kind of not. I should've known something was up..-.^

Came to her house at 9am..came home at 11pmish XD..

I don't remember doing much cept cleaned her car, watched drama, played with her siblings, cooked, and ate dindin. Wait, so I do remember it..anyways.

It was amazing. :) <3
I'm so glad I ran after that car.