Winter part what comes after VI?

I think I am only updating this because there's nothing else to do in winter break..
SO. I volunteered today at dao's church for 5 hrs :O!
who knew sweeping can be so much work...but then again..yesterday, we did sweep the whole cafeteria. I never want to drop anything on that floor again. -.-. But then I got recorded by Channel 2 people because the church won the land or something like that. It showed my shoes and me sweeping the cafeteria on tv!! my shoes are famous <3..7 hours! but then...we did eat...and read a children illustrated bible..and i learned more bout jesus and a bit bout mary :O
Today..was..more work. Me and her checked for trash inside the book case area in between the seats..There are a lot of seats O_O!!! WHY IS EVERYTHING IN THAT CHURCH SO BIG?! Then we had to sweep the entire sanctuary.
my forearm hurts. Party tomorrow, woohooooooo!

Winter break part VI

CHRISTMAS!!!
When I woke up yesterday, I found out that Truc My's mom called my mom and asked to sleepover cause I was going to church at night..and tomorrow. And she asked permission for I luv pho, and I was definitely in! free food is good :D!
But it turned out that it was a party..for some person. And I had piano, so we returned home and I found out that I won the piano competition got a $40 gift card XD! wooo! then I went back to the party...for awhile..bored..then went to church! it was kind of cool cus they did a play! Went to my second home..and we opened presents :)! I got a hoody from miss dao. It's actually what I did want for christmas..^__^
Next day is christmas! :D I hanged out with her all day..again, kinda. We watched some movie they made in vietnam and we played uno and the vietnamese horse game. Then went home :[
First day I ever seen snow on Christmas! and first Christmas I ever hanged out with miss Dao. It was amazing =]
Came home and found a gigantic cyndaquil from Jimie XD! Replaced my cyndaquil pokemon card i leave in my wallet that i lost..He's awesome.

Winter break part V.

CHRISTMAS PARTY!
It was supposed to be at alex's house..but I got in a fight with my mom the other day..So she didn't let us go anywhere. I told miss Dao that, but then she said she wouldn't go either. ...which kinda frustrated me and made me happy for some strange reason o_O. so the party ended up at my house, which was kind of cool cause our group's flexibility to go to any person's house. XD!
we watched dispictable me and toy story 3. Two amazing movies with an amazing family :D

Winter break part IV

Tuesday! I decided to go christmas shopping! But before that, I went back and looked for my wallet..no luck.. :\..so sad.....So i have to get a new permit..then license again. :O!
So i had no ride..but then the hero of the day, mister philip took us! He's so cool..I definitely approve of him and Dianna now X]!
So..i probably spent $90 on everyone's presents...they better enjoy it..

Winter break part III.

Skating was fun.. :D
I wore pants that you can rip em off..like basketball pants. And buttons basically hold em together. So during the race, I fell because I went too fast. It was kind of cool, haha. I fell, and rolled a bit and got right back up again and made it to...4th-5th place out of 10 people ^.^? After skating..everything was all good, so we decided to go to the movies. That part was stressful. We had to figure out where to eat first and which movie theaters. And then in the car ride, Truc My was stressed too, so she kind of accidently took it out on me..which made it more stressful. In the end, we ate mcdonalds..
...Then when I got home, I realize I lost my wallet. It had my $40, my permit, and my school id cards from sophomore year to senior year. >:\

winter break part II.

Horrible day Saturday.  The night before, my best friend asked me out. ...in text. But i told him no. I'm not looking for a relationship right now and I don't think I like anyone right now. ah..I just hope things doesn't change between us. So the next day, there was a party at Alex's house. It was fun and all but for some reason, I was in depression mode. I didn't want to socialize or talk to anyone, so I stayed outside in the cold for bout 30 mins to an hour..o_o. Later that night, my other best friend called me..and everything was fine again. We ended up talking till about 4 am~

Winter break part I. maybe. if i get unlazy, there will be more parts.

SO! FRIDAY was the official start to our Christmas break XD!

But back up..So Monday the 13th was miss Truc My's birthday X]. She was not having a party so I was going to plan a surprise birthday party for her. But a day later or so, her mom called and told me she wanted to have a surprise birthday party for her also. SOOOOOO it worked out perfectly :D! Her mom told her that we're going to a wedding, so we have to dress up nicely...She told her to bring her grandma, her bro, her sis, and her god bro and me to her mom's salon to meet up. The party was at her mom's salon..and I told my friends to dress up and be there. It worked out perfectly; She never saw it coming ^__^

Thanksgiving :D!

Haha. Well, thanksgiving tomorrow..and I decided I want to post stuff I am thankful for cus I probably won't post it...

Things I am eternally thankful for:

• God
• Family
• Friends
• Food
• Life
• Home
• Experience through hardships.
• My three best friends that I know I can count on them anywhere and anytime.

I love you guys, especially you, food <3. I'm so lucky to be blessed with everyone and everything. =]

Love?

Can teenagers be in love? I always believe that teenagers can never be in love...But something changed my mind. Something unfathomable. Or maybe it's because of the person. That person.

 It's kind of weird, actually. Even though I am still unsure, there's one thing I definitely know. It isn't lust. It will never be lust.

The burning.

The burning of the lungs. The burning of the knee. The burning of the body. The burning of my soul.
I ran for the first time today in two weeks. Two long, excruciating weeks. Actually it wasn't that bad...since I had company for two weeks =]. hehe, everyday of that week too O_O. that's just...kinda cool. haha. Thanks TD. Without you, I would be thrown back into the sea of depression again.

Anyways, while I was running, my body was screaming at me. It was asking, "What the freak are you doing? Stop..just stop..." My spirit ignored it and made it keep running. In the end, I ran the mile in 12 minutes. 12 minutes..I used to do under 8.

But the pain..I don't know. It just hurts a lot. I just want to run. I just want to go back to lacrosse. I don't want to lay down and be useless. I can't even walk right.Why is my knee bent and crooked?! It's just so..blah. What do I do?!

I've never been so impatient in my life.

The feeling of content.

You know life is amazing when each and every day is worth it. Even if I messed up my knee, failed my test, and get in trouble by my parents...life is amazing <3. =]
..I should bring that grade up tho :|

Living nightmare.

I messed up my knee again. It's so frustrating and it's like I'm reliving this nightmare again..and again. I am limping and I am constantly in pain :\. If I go to the doctors, they'll just say, "your knee is messed up and you have to go to a physical therapist" and ahhhhhhh! I don't want to go through that again..It's like, I have to sleep so I can't feel it anymore..and it's just..depressing. blah. So all I can do is deal with it..:\

So I made a poem because I'm constantly thinking about my knee now, but I turned it into a lovey dovey poem, haha :D!

Each step I take, pain shoots up to my knee
Each step of pain is worth it to me
Because with each step, I get closer to you.

It's one of those days ;D

Man, I love hanging out..Today was so fun ;D
It all started yesterday. she was about to tell me something, but said, "nevermind" and she drove off. Then I chased after her and threw my favorite green jacket at her. She ran over it. -.-. But I managed to made her stop and I got in.
She asked me at the last minute to come to her house tomorrow (oct 2), but wouldn't tell me why.
I found out today she wanted help cleaning her car. -_-. So I kind of got tricked..kind of not. I should've known something was up..-.^

Came to her house at 9am..came home at 11pmish XD..

I don't remember doing much cept cleaned her car, watched drama, played with her siblings, cooked, and ate dindin. Wait, so I do remember it..anyways.

It was amazing. :) <3
I'm so glad I ran after that car.

Happiness is hard work.

Is it weird how being mean is easier than being nice? Hating someone is easier than loving someone. Giving up is easier than holding on.
It's just kind of sad how being nice to someone, loving someone, and never giving up sounds like such an amazing idea and it's supposed to be natural. For it to be harder than there opposites..it's just scary to imagine someone letting all of that go.

"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place"

An absence or loss of.

Why do I miss you? It feels unreasonable. Is it because I haven't seen you in awhile? As in like see you and not just a glimpse? Is it because I haven't actually talked to you in awhile? As in like having a conversation that has to do with nothing and has to do with everything? How do I get this feeling to go away?...It's like you're there but you're actually not there. I just don't like the feeling of it. It feels...empty.

Is it worth it?

The question that always comes up when you're at your down point. When you're spirit is broken, everything broken, and you're just not sure anymore. Is it worth the pain I'm having? Is it worth everything I'm sacrificing for? Time, money, myself? Everything? Is there such thing as giving everything to someone?

I've learned in my life that a relationship has to work both ways. It can't just be one sided, or else it will never work. That isn't how a relationship works. A relationship can be between anyone, and they're usually the most important to you: family, friends, lovers. Although they are important, how can someone you love makes you feel so happy and can make you so sad at the same time? It's just strange and confusing how that can happen so easily.

 It just makes you think how vulnerable and strong you can be with them around. They are your weakness and they are your strength. They are a part of you. They are everything to you. Are you to them? Make sure you are.

So is it worth it? To be so happy and the next thing you know, they make you so down. It's like a roller coaster of emotions and everything in life. What goes up must go down. No relationship is perfect, so it is bound to happen. But if the depressing side of it over weigh the more positive side, then you must let them go. If the positive side over weigh the more depressing side, never let go.

 Even though you know they are worth it, the pessimistic side can sometimes win . It'll make you think differently. You'll just want to let them go, and you say it's not worth it. When that happens, all you can do is depend on them. You're low on hope and your doubts are high. It just depends on the person that comes and tries to save you in time. The biggest enemy isn't you or him/her, but time.

"The one that cares the least controls the relationship"

-unknown

You are worth it. I'll never be the one who will care less. Thank you for caring. Thank you for saving me in time. Thank you. For everything. It almost had us, but we made it through. We almost lost it, but we made it through. I’ll see you at the end, just me and you.

The coming of home.

Blah. Who knew homecoming was this stressful? I think I like ignoring it all three years. Why does this year make it any different? Ah, I guess it's just..to try something new. Though..homecoming is everything that I DON'T want to do besides hanging out with friends. Dressing up..dancing. :( .Darn the curiosity and peer pressure...Well, as long as they don't try to make me do drugs and all that crap, right!? ....right?! TT_TT 

DARNNNNNNN. $30 bucks for something I'll never wear again! I rather spend it all on T-shirts! >:O

Since I asked Dianna to waste her time on helping me pick out a dress, I couldn't say no. She really loved it..and urgh. And Truc My loved it also. So now..we're matching :O... and she's also going to make our dates match also. Haha. weeeeeeeee...

SCHOOOOOOOOOOOL. 6 weeks so far and I think I got all A's except for an 89 in french 3. -__-..woooooo. Just need a bit more! ;D