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What do I do with my life? I'm so afraid..I'm so afraid that I won't be able to make it in life. I feel like I cannot do anything. I don't have the capabilities of doing something great. In high school, it was so easy. But now everything is different. I mean, I'm getting A's so far, but I don't know. I just want to help people..But I feel like I am not smart enough to...do it..

Conquer.

First semester of college is finally finished!!!!! Boy, was it difficult! but I did it haha! hopefully my grades will be okay :O! It's christmas break <3333333

Hope everyone have an amazing break :)

MOoOooOoooOOoooo

WOW! it has been a very long time since I've been here. I have been busy lately with school. It's my first year in college, and wow, it is a BIG change. O_O. I had never took AP classes in high school, so I had no idea how hard it would be in college. High school was a breeze for me, and in college I actually have to study. I usually hang out with Patrick and Jimie everyday and it's really nice. We're like the three musketeers hahaha. We're always seen with each other, and if one is missing, then something is wrong. It's almost Thanksgiving already, but it's not going to be that fun. I have to take my wisdom teeth out on the day before Thanksgiving, so no yummy food for me :(. AND! I have to write papers...great.....

But besides from all that, my life isn't that bad. I go home at around 1-3 sometimes, and it's really nice :). Overall, college is pretty nice. =]

Awhile ago, me and my best friend had fears that we would separate because we go to different schools now. She's still in high school, so it would be hard for us to hang out. But I came to realize that if both people try, everything will work out. So the fear is gone, and we're even better than before ^__^

Here are some pictures from halloween! muahwhwhahaha. Can anyone guess who we are :D?

And the group!

Dialogue in the dark and Ra!

So I went to Dialogue in the dark recently, and it was intense. Basically, you're in a building and you go into this room with a cane and then they shut the lights off. It is pitch black, and you cannot see the hand in front of you. You are lead by a blind guide into this familiar, new world. Throughout the journey, you will take a walk in the park, go grocery shopping, cross the street, and ride a boat. It is hard because you will eventually want to see again, but you can't until you finish the event. It made me really think that wow, we can see again in about 5-10 minutes, but these people will never ever get to see again. And we were helped lead by my friend's little sister who is only 7. So, that was interesting.
After that, we went around looking for a sushi restaurant called Ra. The GPS took us around and around and we wasted so much gas doing nothing. We spent about 30-45 minutes looking for the place with the GPS until Truc My turned it off and turned it back on. AND THEN! it worked...That was frustrating.
But it was a wonderful day, so it was all good :)

Everything is just a dream...

You ever had that wishing for your future to turn out happy, but in the end it won't? Because you know things will not work out the ways you wish it to be because life is not easy. Life is never easy, and it doesn't matter how good of a person you are, your future is blegh. I have finally came to that conclusion today, and I now know that my future is clear.

Creepers do exist O_O!

So on July 4th, I went to second mom's place to get the table to get ready for the party. She made me work because the place was busy and I shampooed and massage two people that day. The first customer was fine, but the second one was odd. To get tips, you have to converse with the customers to get to know them more personal. But this customer went a bit too personal. He is 39 years old and is from Iran. Single and live with his brother.
We talked, and eventually he told me I'm an interesting person. I said, "Thank you, you too." To be friendly and all, you know? When I went to massage/clean his face, he told me he like my touch. He then proceeded to ask me if I can give him a massage multiple times. I replied that I couldn't because I'm not specialized in it. He even asked if I could massage him with the door open. He then asked me if I wanted to go to dinner with him one day, and he tried this weekend. I told him I couldn't because I work everyday and go to church on Sunday. He then asked for my number and in which I replied sure to be friendly, I guess.I don't know why I did that. But then later changed it to I lost my phone though, so I couldn't give it to him. In the back ground, I hear Truc My yelling, "Juliet! Someone just called you!" I eventually told him that I was using my brother's phone. So as I was finishing up, he asked me if I could rub his chin.
I was like, "okay, why not.."
Then he asked me to touch his ears. I was like, "okay......"
Then!!! He held my hand to lead me to where he wants his ears to be touch, and I think I lost it. He held onto it way longer than I expected, so I pulled my hand out, and finished up.
When I finished, I asked Truc My if we could go home now. She saw that her mom wasn't finish yet, so she said not yet. I told her I am going to go hide now, and I hid in the restroom, trying to regain my composure. I then heard knocking, and I seriously thought it was the dude looking for me.
In the end, he gave me his dental card and gave me $34 tip. I think I saw him grabbed all his money out of his wallet and for what I do...it's only $10. O_o. So was it worth it..?

Myrtle beach!

I just recently came back to myrtle beach, and I had to say...it was amazing. All the stress that we put into planning it was really annoying, but so definitely worth it. We planned the hotel, car, date/time, food, places to go, what to bring..Jeez. So we had 3 rooms. One for parents, girls, and guys. We sneaked in two girls to make it cheaper for us =D! hehe..kind of cool.
So...the first day we went, the waves were awesome. The beach was awesome. It just reminded me of California again. Second day, we did the same thing. Beach, eat, and relax! And shopping!! We all went to all these different stores, and then returned to em. I bought a t-shirt, new swimsuit, shorts, and a lacrosse vizor! ^__^. We walked for 4 hours going from store to store...
Third day Miss Dao rented a moped, and it was so cooooooooool! It was my first time on it, and her driving on it was awesome :D! We googled map the place, and walked to rent it. We returned after an hour because we were pretty sure it was the wrong way. We went home again, and looked it up again, and went the other way and still got lost. We returned to a gas station, asked dad to drive us there, and we found it -.-. So in the end, we spent another 4 hours, walking aimlessly. =.=. but it was so worth it!
Afterwards, we went to the fair thing, and it was awesome! Roller coasters, Big wheel thing, spinny circle thing..man. it was awesome. Alex lost his hat on the roller coaster though, so the next day while everyone was packing up, me and miss dao went to go buy him a new hat! ^__^. everyone pitched in, so i bet that this hat was better than his last hat. After we packed up, we went to broadway at the beach, and headed home. On the way, we went to the fireworks stand, and bought some fireworks that fly up! Which is exciting because in Georgia, it's illegal to sell the one that flies up. =D. Let's just wait until July 4th event!